Because thats your heartfelt words.
Because this feels like a betrayal of friendship, kinship, love.
Because we're all no longer the same.

Drew looks at me,
I fake a smile so he won't see
That I want and I'm needing everything that we should be
I'll bet she's beautiful, that girl he talks about
And she's got everything that I have to live without

Drew talks to me,
I laugh cause it's so damn funny
That I can't even see anyone when he's with me
He says he's so in love, he's finally got it right,
I wonder if he knows he's all I think about at night

He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star
He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do

Drew walks by me,
can he tell that I can't breathe?
And there he goes, so perfectly,
The kind of flawless I wish I could be
She'd better hold him tight, give him all her love
Look in those beautiful eyes and know she's lucky

So I drive home alone, as I turn out the light
I'll put his picture down and maybe
Get some sleep tonight

He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only one who's got enough of me to break my heart
He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do
He's the time taken up, but there's never enough
And he's all that I need to fall into

I'm hungry >.< Jolene.
Did horrible today during training.
Sickening.

Some things are not to be regreted once done.
Still pondering whether this is what I want.
Is this the right choice? Body arts...

Havent been blogging for long.
Havent been using the computer for long too.
Nothing interesting happening recently :/
Trainings, slacking, working.
I want to catch Enchanted! :D

All about this friendship, is trust, betrayal, lies.
Haven't update for long alr.
I have no comment about today,
yesterday, or the day before.
Same old routine *Yawns*

Shag Shag Shag!
Had training just now.
Got punish by Jiaolian.
Damn it man, ran like 30 rounds.
I so innocent still get punished!
Lol! Now blogging @ Xueqi house.
Clearing up some mess. (Ooops~)
My ice cream is melting le lah ):
Just now went down to buy ice cream from Danhui.
When I was so damn tired.
Roar! I'm aching everywhere now.
Nights! :D

Rain rain went away.
Later going to accompany Jolene to visit a doctor.
&& Go grab a bite. I'm hungry!

Yesterday went to Causeway, collected Jolene brother's phone.
Then slacked around at Lot.
Met Yahui at night. She changed alot le...

Bored bored bored!
Have seriously nothing to update :/
There's a wierd feeling in me.
Dont know how to explain.
I realise I cant be bothered with many things currently.
Feeling very empty.
Sucks sucks sucks ):

Why is everything in such a mess,
Im trying so hard already!

I feel very random now.
-- I wished I was born blonde,
so I dont have to harm my hair to be blonde.
-- I want a big lollipop to appear out of nowhere,
so I can camwhore with it.
-- I hope that everyday can be like yesterday,
so that there would be no worries.
-- I want to hug a Domo.

p.s. The picture above has nothing to do with what I've said :D
Quite obviously.

mIRC is the new sex :D
It gets your sex drive high high high.
Ohmygawd. I feel sick thinking of yesterday.
But, entertainment it is :D

iie`m a twitxsszx <33x

So that's what friends are for --
Not to understand, not to believe in.
Everything's weighing in.
So hard so hard to be strong now.

Maybe this is getting a little to hard to accomodate.
A little to hard to take in. A little to hard to give in.

Tried hard, Felled hard.
& I'll come back up and become a stronger person.

Maybe I've really been trying to hard to please.
It's now 4 in the morning already.
I still cant get to sleep ):

I don't know what the hell is wrong with me.
I cant fall asleep at this hour of the day.

Today went to work as usual.
So sick going to Jurong East every weekends.
But well, I guess it's better then slacking in hometown.
I'm already trying so hard to make things work.
Don't really wanna give up just yet.
But what are you doing to salvage?

I think about, the little things that make life great.
I wouldn't change a thing about it. It was the best feeling.

A fun night out with fav girls :D
& I know you'll be back :D Roar~
Oh my god.
Hopping can be real fun :D

Today went to work as usual.
Had many meaningful & naggy conversation.
Like with auntie & boss.

Put down barbie & we'll play with hello kitties :D

In detail --
Sometimes, the best conversations are the ones you have,
with someone who totally disagrees with you.
Too many people fall victim to the desire to hear
exactly what they believe parroted back to them -- but not you!
You understand (now more than ever) that healthy debate,
with a person you would normally not connect with,
can offer you a great deal of satisfaction and education.
So pursue differing viewpoints today and do not be afraid to ruffle a few feathers.

I'm unreasonable. I'll say it straight to your face. I am.

I'm a such a stalker :x
Jiaqi is also a stalker. Lols.
Today had work.
Jolene went to Dano before work.
Then met up with Jiayin after work.

Hell, I simply cant stand two-headed snakes.
Some people who claims to dislike one.
& After that goes with them.
What a betrayer of trust.

Unity sec sucks!
That VP Papaya dont even deserve to be kept in Hell!
They scam people to stay in school.
When that person refuses to.
They assure you that they would give chances.
& Assume that you're making rash decisions.
But hell, they scam you then lead you to nowhere.

Hello 3NA ):
I'm gonna see Geoffrey next year.
Hell, I dont want see him. Lols!
Today's random.
Howabout, Happy deeparaya.
Training was sickening today.
Sitted for like 2 hours, like an idiot.
Baaaah. None of the combination's are satisfying.
To hell with me ):

Once upon a time I was falling in love
But now I'm only falling apart
There's nothing I can do
A total eclipse of the heart
Once upon a time there was light in my life
But now there's only love in the dark

I think I dropped 3NA.
Because Mrs Ma said so. Hell!
Only 2 people dropped to NA, if I'm not wrong.
Today's training sucks too.
Fuck fuck fuck!

End-of-year's over. I flunked many subjects I guessed.
I guess I'd retain. But I have alr done my best~

Too much wrongs from the start, to make it all rights.

Havent update for long.
Accompanied Jolene& Yahui to interview today.
Ended up getting myself a job. Wth -.-
Friday was Chinese paper.
Damn hard.
But I dont want go NA!
I'm trying like super duper kind of hard.
So tmr should be go study bahs.
Mug like abcdefg.
I'm worried for Math& Math& Math.

Yesterday, after chinese paper, met up with Joleneoh.
Ended up going to a Weide's guy party.
They all damn helpful can (:

I never thought I, need you here when I cry.

Raaahs. I miss school out of a sudden.

Lols! The fact that I'm a goodgirl cant be denied.

I wanna go shopping before exams lahs ):

I hope can. Oh my.

I feel like a caged human.

Studdyyyyy!

Maybe later going study.

Yesterday had lots of fun :D
We studied.

Jolene, Olivia, & Me!

& We saw a little cute girl there.

She love us till she use her hello-kitty camera to snap us =P

In the end, I cannot resist the tempatation of the Hello-kitty camera.

& I bought Happy meal! Hahahs :D

Watched 881 at lot one then.

The showtime was 11.45

Nice show :D

Very touching lahs!

The sisterly love's so sweet! =D

.

At Jolene's house now.
Just now went to Yewtee mac study :D
Im guai!
Later going to watch 881 at lot I think.

Because you'll never know.

Havent been updating for long!
Raaaaaaahs.
Today got volleyball training.
So tiring. Lols.
Slept whole day in school because slept very late yesterday ):
On the way home, talked to Chloe baobei :D
I love her :D

Yesterday was my b'day :D
Celebrated 3 times! Lols!
Once on 12 September, Wednesday.
With Olivia & Jolene.
Afterwards sabo-ed by Dominic Yeo.
Celebrated twice on actual day.

Nicholas, Jiaqi, Wanling, Chloe, Geraldine, twoone people.

I think, yeahs.

& I got a Elmo! From Edmund & Priscilla Xingan.

People nowadays so boxim!
All buy cake. Hahahs!
But it's the thought that count :D
Happy belated b'day to me :D

Imy.

Im yearning for your love baby.

September holiday's boringgggggggggggg.
Training, extra classes, volleyballing or work ):
Tmr going to accompany Jolene to make her IC.
Asshole! :D
Dont think got IC very big horhs =x
And it's late now.
I hope I wakes up on time tmr (:

These few days like everyday same routine.
Sigh =/
Today went to lot one after haircut.
HAHAHAS. I'VE GOT NO MORE BANGS (Straight straight fringe)
Saw Rayhan, Clement, Dominic, Gabbriel.
And Jeanlian&co.
Such a boring day =/

Baby wont you tell me why.

There is sadness in your eyes ?

There's always something left in my head.

You're the one who said it out.

Now you're the one to make it stop.

I know I'm not the one you're missing.

Thats why you go away, I know.

I miss the holidays ):
Today went southview.
Dennis&Chaolim&Rayhan&Wongkt&Wong-Ginna&Joetan!
& The most beloved Dogfriend.
Then went to sell icecream. Shag ):
Genting photos. Alot lei ):
Post next time lahs :D

I've never felt this way before.

Everything that I do, reminds me of you ):

Baby. Baby. My heart just cant seem to learn to part.

Im in Gentingggggggggggg !
Be jealous (:

Someone had left a link to this photo on the tagboard :DDD
I think it's meant to let others see?
Wow & Heyhey. That's me ley!
I remember liking this photo very much :DDD
This was when sec one.
& The person still went to edit it leis.
So cool right.
Cannot make it. If I were to edit it. Maybe I would say the same.
Aint I cute in that photo =x
& I dont know why that person has to do this.
Negatively or positively.
I dont care :DDD
But I really wonder who anlian Olivia until keep our photo :DDD
HAHAHAS.
Bye people. I'm off to have a breather.
& Another ugly photo in school uniform.
During year start. Sec two :DDD

Darn steven lim.
What an ass. Look at this!
What's with the 'Ohmygod', 'Yousucks' & 'Cuckoo' thing.
It just makes me wanna barf.
You have an ugly face & plus an ugly heart.
So please, stop claiming to be the handsome-st guy in Singapore.
I bet if people overseas sees that, they will not dare to step into Singapore.
Asshole. Be truthful to yourself please.
Do stop coming so near to your camera please.
Your saliva seems like it might just pop out from my screen like that.
That makes me cringe.
Plus your pronounciation sucks.
I can speak x1000000000 better than you with my tongue stud on.
I cant stand the way he actually said all of that.
I cant believe I finished watching *rolls eye & faints*
& Is there a problem with you and people who cannot speak chinese well?
ASSHOLE LAH. YOUR ENGLISH SUCKS BIG TIME.
AND I HAVE A PROBLEM WITH YOU.
AND WHAT THE HELL WITH THE CHICKEN PIE.
WHAT AN ACT -
VULGARITIES ON A PERSON WHO DIDNT CLOSE THE DOOR
Step power lei. It makes me barf I tell you Steven Lim.
The way you say 'whadevil' makes you look like a bloody retard.
AND WHAT IS THE PROBLEM WITH YOUR ENGRISH ARH ?
WHY PEOPLE UGRY GOT LINK WITH THEIR SHORT HAND & LEG ?!
AND STOP SAYING WHATEVER WITH A ROLL EYE SOUNDING LIKE WHAT-DEVIL.

This shame in me doesnt let me live my life.
But I promise I wont hurt myself.
I know there are so many people who's reading this, cares for me.
Oh, Hello you! =D

I'm sorry. I'm sorry for disappointing you girl.
But I guess you can never know how I feel.
Turning down & this stress inside.
There must be an odd one in three though.
I really appreciate all the things you've done for me.
Small or big.

Baby, I dont need you anymore.
Be happy now.

I cant forgive myself.
I cant forget what happen.
I hate you for causing all these.
When I was down & out.
You thought of only yourself.
You h**** b******
I hatehatehate you.
I thought I saw you downstairs.
You know the fear?
I bet you dont.
I bet you feel like nothing was wrong.
F off. Motherf*****

Everything is in a mess. Home, friends, relationship, school.
I hatehatehate this.

Hello people :DDD
Anti-emo campaign starts today =x
The bottom line -
Guys are Cheap

They only hanker for things they do not get easily.
Eeeeeew. Erxin erxin !
Well not all guys. Why do I say that?
Dont you realise,
people who likes you normally are people you dont like?
Cheap right :PPP
But some Mr-nice-guy next door might last forever,
with some Miss-nice-girl .
Some. Some. Some.

Girls usually are more hurt in a relationship.
So the term weaker sex might just apply here.
I know it. Cause I 've been thru it.

Another advice -
Slap yourself for crying whole night for any random guy last night
Hohohs I sound so professional dont I? I am :PPP
Conclusion is Guys are cheaaaaaaaaaap!

Please take me away.
I hate it here.

Went to watch Harrypotter yesterday with Clare.
The show was super amazing can.
Then saw the mega-clique people.
Walked for the entire night to yewtee.
Super tiring!
Because before that had this class outing.
To the Singapore Museum.
The place is perfect for cam-whoring!
:DDDDD I'm gonna go volleyballing soon.
I miss Joleneoh now. So much.

Hello ex-Ahbangs&Ahdiks.
I guess you guys wont be reading this anyway.
I think I dont mean anything now to you guys.
Except maybe when you guys need a spare tire for slacking.
or financially.
It's saddening to put it this way.
& I saw the friendship msg that you sent to Jolene.
How very saddening.
But maybe thats just the awful truth.
I can do just right with my Joleneoh.
Ps. I hate you all.

I miss you like sndjrekrns ):
Dumbshit. Just came back from volleyballing.
But didnt perform or really enjoy.
Cause one side of my contact lenses got torn up while cat-fighting.
I'm feeling random emo-ness.
Not really random.
But from missing you like fuck ):
Why is everything's in a mess.
I'm brave.

I miss you. Terribly.
It's taken a toll on my life.

We are super random today.
We must randomly use the word random in every sentence !
Retarded enough. Went for a random BBQ in Labbrador Park.
Not random BBQ actually. But Dave's random uncle BBQ =x
Many random people went.
Like -
Cheryl, Clare, Crystal, Eugene, Geoffrey,
Jiaqi, Liyan, Melody, Priscilla, Xinying, Vanessa
& Of course Dave&Celestine

Nice seaview, nice games, nice randoms !

There were a few accidents. Okays. One random accident.
Jiaqi's ball boyfriend, felled into the water,
& got carried away by the current.
Jiaqi's very devasted over the loss of her beloved ball boyfriend.
Let's give respect- one minute of silence~
*Stops typing for one minute =x

Then after awhile...
" Where's the two other balls arhs ?!?! "
Reported missing. Then found back again.
LOL, ROFL. We actually left two balls at the place where we were playing.
& some meanie kind souls picked it up,
pretended that it was their's helped us keeped it.

Then after roasting marshmellows & eating.
We went to dive =DDD
Dive in the sand for the ball. Hohohhhs!
& Clare was all over the playground like a monkey
together with Geoffrey monkey number 2

The monkeys hyperactives.

& Clare!

After fooling around & stuffs.
We went home. & we freaking randomly walked out of that place.
It was like super-duper-uber-idiotic kind of far.
& we randomly found a bus-stop!
Which has the bus 188, which wasnt random.
=x I know I should stop this random thing.
But well, I attracted the bus =DDD !
Randomly! xD & we crapped many random craps.
& I shall post the rest of the pictures in my next post ;DDDDDDDD

Now at Jolene's house.
Many things happened recently.
Dont wish to talk about it.
Tiresome about all these stuffs.
Idiotic! >.<
Just now I was like - xiasuay until can bang wall die.
I was like talking to Jolene & facing her.
Then I knocked into someone while walking,
an indian auntie~
Ohmytian! =x I'm not a racist.
I swear*and cross that fingers behind my back!

Blog tmr ;D
Urghs , feeling super lazy to bloggggg !
Anyways , on (date-stated-above) went shopping ~
Crazy shopping trip it was .
Crazy like qjkdenlwefjklf =x
Went to Bugis first ,
then bought a denim shorts , blue halter neck , handbag , wallet .
Jolene ♥ bought a denim shorts & a small pouch / bag .
The denim shorts were of the same designs ;DD
Olivia ♥ bought a white shorts .
Had lunch at Yoshinoya , everyone ate Ebi Value meal ;DD
Saw a super-duper-uber wierd couple !
They were like , opposite sex laaaaaah .
They guy was like crying ,
then the girl was like at there dont know what to do .
Like urghs -.-
Went back then , Jolene went home first because of some personal things .
Then I was like in a very shoppy ( Self invented word ? ) mood .
So actual on the way back near Chuachukang Station ,
I was like - Olivia !
You want to go Kranji's This Fashion maaaaah ? ( or Something like that lahs =x)
Then she didnt want to take trains / public transport .

So I was very desperate to go shopping .

Then - We take cab go lahs !?

So we went =x & buy buy buy buy buy alot of stuffs !

Super high now thinking of the stuffs I bought ! ;DD

Anyway , at midnight went to meet Dennis .

He went Mac , then tio spot by me on MSN!

Hahas , right ~
So met him , slacked (etc) with Olivia ♥

&& Pictures !

A top bought at This Fashion

Whiteeeeeee wallet ;DD

& A bag =x

No , I didnt bought this , This is me ;D

Looks quite neat & tidy ? Look again (:

1st day only ! Bags flung all over . By 2nd day the place was like a pig sty =x

Rayhan , Hexiang , Dennis , Clement , Joe { In order /
1st day , While they were sleeping , before Dom & Weekian slept . Around 7+
Everyone here slept like a tin of sardine . Except for ... Jonathan .
Shit man , I suddenly cant find th picture that I took of him .
Cozy one person lying on the bed .
& While all these photos were taken in secret ...
The 2 boliaos were sitting outside .
Came back from Mac with Ice-milo .

Dom & Weekian . Doing nothing ? I think .
Yeahs , that was it =x
Didnt take alot *Tsk I thought I did , maybe delete wrongly ):
& Before all the above , when most people havent sleep .
I was quarreling with some dogs =x
I called them dogs because they barking all the way =/
& They're like , 4-5 tables away luh .
I swear that they disturb me first anyway =x


There ! Yadaaaaaa & Random pictures (:

Randoms -

BBQ Pit before the man cleaned it up .

Around 7+ This guy appeared to clean up our mess =x

Neighbouring super-duper clean chalets .
I bet it was super-duper kind of clean .
At least , comparing to ours =x

Slippers ! -.-

The 7.18 am sky :D
Before leaving chalet -
Left Rayhan , Dennis , Clement , Hexiang , Olivia , Jolene & Me .

The rest ran / sneaked away -.-
Then , Action action !

Me & Sweetheart !


Ps*
My younger sister is like , talking with her boyfriend . Immature lah
Okay , I'm jealous -.-

I give up .
Compared , I'm a failure .
Maybe its better like this .
Giving up doesnt mean that I walk away .
But I understand the fact that you love her so super duper much.

These few days was @ chalet
Dennis's chalet .
All I can say to the entertainment / people
No life leis !
Wahlaus , keep going Red house .
If not sleep .
But overall still quite fun :DD
& I kept getting bullied .
By that idiot Hexiang .
I never thought he was such a hyper person .
But it's only in chalet .
First day night ,
Dom & Weekian came .
Then everyone was like lying on bed / sleeping .
Then in the end 3+ went Red house again .
I've never went to Red house like so many times in like 2 days .
Then after came back slacked etc .
Dom dixiaoxiao -.-
He keep singing indian songs .
If not , chanting buddhist chants .
Pissed me off . Then I angry said something , went out .
After that Weekian & Dom never sleep .
Then 7+ in the morning , they suddenly appear with Ice milos !
Then darn bored ,
Dom & Weekian , last men standing literally .
Went in to sleep .

FYI *
Red house is not scary at all .
Because I never see anything everytime I went =x
But sometimes there is a presence . Like someone is there .
& Yes , I dont believe in things that I havent seen with my own eyes (:
Anyways , a forum discussion on the Red house { Click it /
& Some people in the forum said that the Red house have second storey .
But everytime I go , I only see one =/
& They say got a door lead to basement .
But , WHY I NEVER SEE BEFORE ?!
Lols , next time must explore more thoroughly !
Joe talked to a guy cycling , dont know why lah .
Then the guy said that got female ghost inside .
Dont like females that inrude .
But I read in the forum , stories .
Mostly only girls get possesed or have anything happen =x
& The house is registered under Mr. C K Tang , the guy who founded TANGS
Information by SPI after requesting to see the land deed .

Anyway , second day Jolene & Olivia came back ;D
Yeps , then went Red house again -.-
But this time , to see clearly , explore =D
Got Dom , Jonathan , Olivia , Jolene & Me .
The rest was at the chalet sleeping -.- Ps , I said they no life already !
Clement , Hexiang , Dennis , Rayhan , Weekian , Joe was sleeping at the chalet .
When we went back , after awhile , Jonathan keep dixiao-ing Dom .
Play Virgin Killer 0,0 { Invented by Jonathan /
After which I'm super pissed off .
& I went out of the room mutiple times .
I'll post the photos in another post later :DD

Came home super-duper early .
Like 6 plus or something .
I'm being such a good girl ;D
Actually I was feeling unwell =x
Met up with Jolene & Olivia 11.3o ♥
As usual I was late =x
Olivia came to my house first ,
as Jolene wasnt ready too .
Supposed to go back to our company (Holiday job - sales ;D)
But ~ Well ended up going to yewtee mac
Met up with Clementwongkt , Joe , Jonathan
Saw Joel Chin the dog there =x
One word that best describes him is - Er xin
Went back to Lot 1 after awhile .
Yadaa yada , then in the end Dom & 2 other guy .
Suddenly dont know pop-out of nowhere =x
Yeahs , then went to South-view .
! Guys , you all dont need to keep secrets with me ,
Cause Jonathan has a big mouth ;D
Like - He went to meet whoever =x

Thankyou my Jolene oh ♥

But I really dont want to give up .

Letting go doesnt mean it will do me good .

You dont know how I feel girl .

Maybe I'll go crazy & feel sad at times .

But those memories just would not be replaced just so easily .

Maybe time will heal =] or maybe not .

Yesterday night I miss my blogger so much !
I'm currently feeling like ' the walls for my head to bang '
Arghhhhhs , yesterday had a drop too many .
I cant believe I spluttered so much nonsense -.-
! I want to throw myself down the window
Nahs , I wouldnt want to right now .
Before I catch jonathan & delete all xiasuey videos .

Yesterday whole lot of people came to my house .
Then we drank =x
We played some stupid card games .
Then I keep losing , cause I wanted to drink ):
I kept tua-ing , now I feel like a fool -.-
Shit man , that didnt numb myself .
Completely made a fool out of myself instead =/
Actually everyone except for two drank .
But only me & jolene went crazy .
Very crazy in fact - at there puah stunts (do stunts)
Nvm about that now =D
But I seriously want to say -
Sorry for spluttering nonsense , just take it as rubbish lahs

I just chanced on Xiaxue's blog [ Click it ;D ]
& Saw a post which said about Aurora [ Click this too ;D ]
Real pretty , up next on my wishlist is to see an Aurora ;D
I cannot believe that it doesnt exist only in fairytales =x


The Aurora Borealis, or Northern Lights, shines above Bear Lake

Pretty isnt it ? ;D
I would die to see one laaaaaaaah =x
I know its not really possible =x
My elder sister says 'That one can only see in Penguin Land lei'

Totally shagg-ed now.
& I'm feeling very emo these few days .
Damn it kind of irritating .
there's like many problems & I had enough !
I wished memories could be washed away .
Because the problem isnt whether I can or cannot forget .
It's that I don't want to forget
Real damn it irritatinggggggg

After work today , went to Lot 1
Wanted to meet Clementwongkt @ Kbox
But he said it was his friend's room & there were too many people
I'm not sure if it was excuses or what
But I kept remembering the past .
Those times when we slacked @ yewtee & only yewtee
Then I told Clementwongkt many things
I really misses the past even though there won't be anything like those times
& I seriously hope that the bunch that goes to Dennis house ,
or Bukit Timah to play pool
Won't walk our seperate ways ,
just because of a mistake .