I need to study! *Uncrosses fingers
For real I have to!
I'm lagging behind in so many subjects.
I'm getting so tired of school because of this.
That I cant get anything into my brainsssss.
This is so traumatising (?!)
Today went to training, even though skipped school.
Self-training (:
Hohoh, then ate at mac (fattening!) with Weifeng& Vanessa.
Was bitching all the time there. *Grins
Imma so so so sick of my life. My no-life kind of life.

I miss the past, I'm so sick of reminiscing.
This world is such a sick place.
The society is so disgusting,
Life is so (censored) up.
You can judge a book by its cover.
You can think what you think.
But then again... you'll never know the true me.

Another post, but well, same day.
Shan't mingle public affairs with personal matters.
Laugh-out-loud!

Firstly: I miss coach. ):
Secondly: I feel so out of place.
Thirdly: I feel like I'm like volleyballing everyday,
to busy myself with.

I need a time machine. I want to go back in time.
Everything seems so pointless.
Everything just doesn't works out.
My heart feels like a bottomless pit.
(Now my stomach is feeling like one too)
I need my life back. To be on the right track.

Warning: Explict content/ language

My mood now is like,
hundreds of dynamite exploding in me.
Fuck it man! Things are just so wrong.
I must have gotten out from the wrong side of bed. *Rolls eye
But actually, there's only one side I can get out from.

Set off to Punggol @ around 6 plus today, evening.
Weifeng& I took the train to Angmokio.
Then took a taxi to Punggol secondary. (51 Edgefield plains)
Which is a fucking expensive $23.45! And a 50 minutes.
From Angmokio to Punggol. It's like...?! Fuck!
The issue now, isn't about the money but the time.
And the cabby is like, has a fucking attitude problem!

Urghhhh! He reprimanded us for not knowing the road?!
And he was very very rude to passerby(s).
He was like "Hello hello" *in a very harsh tone*
"You know how to get to Punggol Secondary?!" (In mandarin)
And everyone ignored him?!
Then he claims that we weren't precise with the address.
The address is 51 EDGEFIELD PLAINS lah you STUPID CABBY.
I said that "If we knew the raod, we weren't be in your cab!"
And he said it's not his fault he didn't know the road!
Nobody blames him for that, but he just keep mumbling,
that we are fault for not knowing the address!
Screw himself! >.< He's old.
We wanted to respect him. But there's no respect he deserves!
Plus, while Weifeng was off the taxi to ask a passerby direction,
at a bus stop, he just drove off! Like what the hell?!
And there was Weifeng running after the stupid cab.

In the end my dad gave him the directions.
Then he was like
"If you had told me this earlier, I'd have known!" (In mandarin)
Like I'd want to waste my own time in your stinky cab?!
Then in the end, he still doesn't know where it is!
Me and Weifeng still has to get off at some HDB flats.
In the middle of nowhere! And we figured the place out ourself,
with the help of another passerby.
Plus he refuses to give me a receipt at the end of the trip.
He was afraid of me making a complain I guess.
Then he said that he only wants to charge us $13,
if not, he'd refuse to print us a receipt.
Is that threatening or what?!
He wasted our time alot, and Weifeng was super pissed off.
Weifeng actually screamed at him!
"Our time is precious!" Something like that.
He canceled off the original price, and wrote $13 instead.
In the end, I still gave him $25 in total.
And said "Keep the change!"
He stalked us, all the way. Saying he'd drive us there.
No way I'm getting into HIS stinky cab.
You're just afraid I'd make a complain right?!
You stupid cabby. Yes! I am so gonna make a complain.
I am I am! Fuck it.
p/s: It's a (insert company here) cab (SH 786* K)

And while on the way home,
(Daddy& Mummy came to fetch me and Weifeng)
I got to know something, disgusting/irritating/fucked up.
Eeeeew! You ugly fucktard. You aint no handsome guy.
And you're still not contented?!

p/s: This post took me a 1hours and 20minutes to type!

Oh yeah, realise that I havent been to shopping for ages.
I need a shopping trip! Urgh.
And any kind souls to sponser me for it? :x
Im feeling super excited after looking at some random blogshops.
I swear that I am so very going to spend my wallets out.

I'm so tired. And I'm super sleeping *Yawns!
So goodnight, all out there.

I want time to turn back, go back in time.
I believe to never, never,
give up the things that hold my smile.
But, it doesnt matter to nobody.
So, why do I need to fake a smile at all...
For nobody to see?
See no, say no, hear no. Evil.

你总是要我乖,慢慢计划将来,
说的未来到底多久才来

Loved, and Lost.
I loved you, but I lost my placing in your heart.

My mind is gone, i'm spinning round.
And deep inside, my tears i'll drown.
I'm losing grip, what's happening.
I stray from love, this is how I feel.

This time was different.
Felt like, I was just a victim.
And it cut me like a knife.
When you walked out of my life.
Now I'm, in this condition
& I've got all the symptoms,
of a girl with a broken heart.
But no matter what you'll never see me cry.

Did it happen when we first kissed.
Cause it's hurting me to let it go.
Maybe cause we spent so much time.
& I know that it's no more.
I shoulda never let you hold me baby.
Maybe why I'm sad to see us apart.
I didn't give to you on purpose.
Gotta figure out how you stole my heart.

Some people dons a mask, some have two faces.
Some people are straight in your face,
whereas some. Just leaves you.
How I wished, time could be turned back...
But it isn't going to.
I've been striving to be nice, to be perfect, to be me.
You can say I'm acting, you can talk behind my back.
But you bloody do not know anything,
so shut your trap.
You assume, you think, you saw.
You think you are so right, when you are not!
Darn, screw it! ):

我的心真的好痛好痛...
Hate guys that think
they're the dominant gender (?) kind of thing.
Screw yourself if you're one of them.
*tsk: Nobody is always in the right!

Watched The Dark Knight during midnight. The show is fantastic. (:
Nice visuals, though storyline kind of, common.
4.5/5 stars! (:

Fuck. Fuck. Fuck.
): I'm really feeling bloody disappointed.
I spent the bloody whole of yesterday night to finish the POA's poster thing.
And today morning I called Pearlyn up.
She went to prepare and stuffs I guess.
Then I slept for that awhile.
AND SHE FUCKING DIDNT WAKE ME UP!
I seriously feel like abcdefghi.
You know those kind of feeling, when you've worked so hard...
In the end, those effort gone down the drain.
And the boards, completely cannot be used at all.
For any other events. Urghs! ):

The Bottom Line
A teammate will be the best person capable of giving you constructive criticism.

In Detail
Being a member of a team is good for you -- it brings out your compassion, and provides you with the support system you need to stay positive. And if you need to improve on something, a teammate is the best person capable of giving you constructive criticism. If you aren't currently on a team, that's easy enough to remedy -- all you have to do is join a group that fights for a cause you believe in. Or just sign up for an exercise class at the gym!

Don't know the key to success, but the key to failure is trying to please everybody.

My mood now is: A blank
Sometimes, somethings, unknowing maybe better.
But at times...
I am so sick and tired.
Of a places with so much fond memories,
that brings sorrows now. Phew.
*Randomly inserts a jiaobin here!

我们的开始
是很长的电影
放映了三年
我票都还留着
冰上的芭蕾
脑海中还在旋转
望着你　慢慢忘记你

朦胧的时间
我们溜了多远
冰刀划的
圈起了谁改变
如果再重来
会不会稍嫌狼狈
爱是不是不开口才珍贵

再给我两分钟
让我把记忆结成冰
别融化了眼泪
你妆都花了要我怎么记得
记得你叫我忘了吧
记得你叫我忘了吧
你说你会哭
不是因为在乎

This are the videos for the Seoul Garden 'outing'.
Hahahah, do not watch if you do not have the time uh.
Warning: Time wasting! *But entertaining, to me.

Thanks Peter 老爸 for today.
Be it a stress-free outing, or another counselling. Which is no hope!
I dont care what you guys think. I dont! Shows (censored handsign)
I really did enjoy myself today.
Timah's Saddle club& Qianhu fish farm.
Didnt know it was such a place of serenity...
Upload soon, this coming weekend probably.
Watch out for further updates& edits on previous posts.
Goodnight, loves (:

Went to watch The Strangers @ Westmall today.
With Jolene, My Love (Jocelyn), Nut, Willard& Wu.
Guohui fly us aeroplane ):
Anyway, thumbs down for the show!
The storyline wasn't there.
The scaring scenes are classical. (But I was still scared)
The ending was (censored)!I'd rate it 2/5 stars.
Then proceeded to Newcourt, even though I really didnt want to.
Well, guess that's all for today.Will update previous post soon.
I'm just like, super duper lazy to do so now.
School starts late tommorrow.
But will be going early to play volleyball (:
Yay, burn fast fats! Hahahaha.

只剩下钢琴陪我谈了一天
睡着的大提琴
安静的旧旧的
我想你已表现的非常明白
我懂我也知道
你没有舍不得

你说你也会难过我不相信
牵着你, 陪着我也只是曾经
希望他是真的比我还要爱你
我才会逼自己离开

你要我说多难堪
我跟本不想分开
为什么还要我用微笑来带过
我没有这种天份
包容你也接受他
不用担心的太多我会一直好好过

你已经远远离开
我也会慢慢走开
为什么我连分开都迁就着你
我真的没有天份
安静的没这么快
我会学着放弃你
是因为我太爱你

I have to start figuring out,
what has gone wrong between us.
I have to know, what have I done.
I need to start all anew,
end this nonsensical disaster.
I am so sick of giving in.
I am so tired of not being me.
How'd you feel to be left all by yourself.
How'd you feel to be discrimnated.
How'd you feel... To be me?

Just came home from volleyballing.
With Dave& Jiaqi. Yayness. (Burn fats, burn fats!)

Yesterday:
Nubian gents& Feminine Fire.
Fantabulous is what I can say.
Went back to church (accompanied Danhui).
This dance troupe came to perform.
Then after which service ended at 4 plus.
Headed to Andrea's house for cell-group/pot luck.

Left early& met up with Jiaqi, Casper, Biru for dinner,
to celebrate Casper's belated birthday! (:
Happy belated birthday Casper! (:
Wanted to dine in at Sakura (Science Centre).
But the place was way too packed.
So in the end, went over to Seoul Garden at Causeway point.
I've to thanks Mum& Dad for offering to fetch us there! (:
We had hell lots of fun there.

After which, met up with Jolene, Willard, Derrick& Jiali at Yewtee.
Willard accompanied Jolene& me home.
Then Willard& I headed over to Yewtee.
Slacked... Slacked... Slacked...
Then headed back home at around 5am.

The fits & fits of laughter,
Willard, Wu, Weixiong& Jiali (:
Went out to look for them at around midnight.
& Cabbed home at around 3 plus (?)
After getting screened by the Police!
Shall edit this post soon,
adding the sound recording of their laughters&
some pictures to go along! (:

Today went for Punggol training. (:
Commotions on the MRT.
Saw (below) poster. Eeeew! >.<

Danger is really close though ):
I've got two (censored)-ing
big fat lump of mosquito bites on my leg!
On the way back... Jillyn says my sitting position is unglam.
Not true, not true! (:
It's Emoistic. Hahahaha. (:

Loser lor Jillyn! (:
Sneakshot people, yet ownself so...

Anyway, my helix piercing dropped off,
while I was enjopying in lala-land somehow ):

Anyway it was super swollen! >.<
See the difference above.
But I think the piercing is ganpua chio! ):
Imma so gonna repierce it again!

Today is a bad day! Yes it is.
I got sent home due to my hair colour.
(Censored handsign) Quarreled with my mum.
I'm so so so so fed up. My mind is like one blank.
I really feel very angry/sad ):
I dont know how to express myself!
Stupid school& stupid Mr (insert name here).
You black cow with a hairy chest! *Yadaa yadaa.
Always interrupt when people's talking.
Blahhhhhh, Okay. I'm like full of rubbish now.

Today morning, met up with Jolene, Willard& Wu.
Was supposed to meet @ 4 am. And yet again.
Oversleeping-s. -.-
So agreed to meet up @ 445 am instead.
I was late by around 15 minutes.
But who knows, Wu& Willard WAS EVEN LATER! *Rolls eye.
Inside joke: Willard told me that,
"The reason Sleeping Beauty couldnt wake up.
Is because Prince Charming overslept!" *Gives one jiaobin.
Rubbish, rubbish, rubbish!
So Jolene was like: Actually, it's because,
"Sleeping beauty refuses to look at Prince Charming lah!"
(Equal dot equal): =.=

Finished the show.
Tried looking for a picture of the programme.
Sadly, there was none ):

Well well, let's talk about today's happening (:
Today I watched 球爱大战 (Beach. Ball. Babes.).
That was it. *rolls eye at myself
Well, of course not.
My life is so interesting that I should have a long post. (Hahahahaha)
Today, was supposed to meet @ 1030 am apparently.
But in the end, Sleeping beauty did not oversleep.
Cinderella did! (Hahahaha) p/s: Private Joke.
Met up with Jolene, Willard, Wu @ 215 pm.
Then went to Macdonald.
Afterwhich, proceeded to Newcourt.
Slacked there till around evening.
Played/Entertained a few kids. Then, proceeded home (:
Afterwhich, I came down& looked for Jiaqi.
For a Ice-cream feast! (:
Hehehehe. She randomly asked me to treat her to Ben& Jerry's.

I think childrens are super-uber-very-oh-my-god-kind-of cute!
Yes, I meant c-h-i-l-d-r-e-n-s.
Instead of t-o-d-d-l-e-r-s or b-a-b-i-e-s.
Undoubtly, newborns/toddlers are cute.
But well, they cannot express themselves. Can they?
Unlike childrens. Childrens are very innoccent.
They speak what they think/hear/feel.
That is, absolutely very likable. To me at least.
Why cant humans just say out what they think?
Being frank is a very good thing.
Why dont adults/teens/grown-ups retain that bit of innoccent from young!
Well well, everybody changes, dont they?
An uninvitable change.

Well, for the part I've missed out for so many posts.
Pictures! (:


Above: Jolene found a super long french-fry!

Above: Okay. *Censored*ing french-fry& onion-ring.
p/s: I do not know, how can anyhow be this dirty! x)

Above: End product. (Meant to be thought, in a dirty way)

Above: Willard's stunned (Jiaobin lor!)

Above: Acting like he's not stunned!
p/s: In actual fact he's traumatised!

At Newcourt @ a Later time:


Above: Jolene interacting with Enen by wearing her crocs.

Above: & In return (?!) Enen wears Jolene's M)phosis.

Above: Jolene lim-qim with my son! (:

Above: Lim-qim plan is a success!

Above: It appears that he doesnt like me.

Above: Oh no. He doesnt love me I guess.
p/s: Okay. That aint true. He's just shy.
To show his big big love to me!
Or perhaps, the camera-men's lousy. (Yadaa yadaa)
*Proceeds to find another 100 reasons to explain.

Ice cream feast @ 7 Eleven:


Above: I like, I like (: Mochi Ice-cream.

Above: Ben& Jerry's.
p/s: The ice-cream is abit squishy, due to the fridge being spoilt.
This the first time I ate B&J till I cannot make it.

Above: Jiaqi hates the double chocolate one.
(So mean! Still poke at it)

Above: While purchasing the ice-creams.
Jiaqi's phone flew away. Flew to ground level instead of upwards.

Above: Sayangs her phone first.

Above: Proceeded with the D.I.Y repair of handphone.

Above: Done! (Apparently not the first time...)

I'm currently watching 球爱大战 (Beach. Ball. Babes.)
Hehehehehe! (: It's the advertisements now.
Shall update in like 30 more minutes!

我已经分不清你是友情还是错过的爱情

Just a random picture (:
Today morning went for Yewtee training.
Yayness, playing in open tournament.
Wonders if Coach forgave me...
Then rushed to meet up with Jolene, My Love, Nut, Willard, Wu.
Went to shop @ Bugis street.
Then proceeded to Partyworld@ Town.
Went to newcourt, then cabbed home with Jolene.
Mwacks mwacks. I love Jolene& My Love!

(Censored handsign)
No one's in any position to judge me.
But, yet. Why am I so bothered by it?
Escaping cannot solve anything.
But at least it offers a moment of peace& serenity.

You can say all you want about me.
It does make me feel down.
But does it make you feel any better?
If it does, go ahead.
Please be assured,
you're building your happiness on my sorrows!

I'm so so so tired. Physically& mentally.
Trust. It's such a splendid thing.
It can build up a relationship& crush one.
It can strengthen a relationship& also fail one.
Now now now,
How does it feel to be exposed?
How does it feel to cross the border, only to reach an end?
How does it feel to hurt a person you claimed to love so much?
(Censored) love, (censored) it all.

Like a serial drama, the storyline so well known.
Yet deceives the characters, with the audience knowing.
All I can hope for is that, everything would be better in time.

I hate this feeling,
Anyone hurting my brothers& sisters.
But, what if...
The person who hurts them is the one they love (?)