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I feel unglam, weak& ugly these days. ):
(Sighsss!)
I'm going to create a new blog.
*Tsk* New blog, new beginning (?!)
Hahaha!

I feel like a geek. (Inserts a jiaobin here)
Everyday is like, filled with studies.
While at times difting off from studies to Redemption!
Many of my dearest friends birthday are coming...
Take this space& time to
wish them a most happy advanced Birthday! &
Warning: Long post ahead!


On the 26th August. Jolene Oh.
No matter how far we drifted apart, we will drift back again.
Wont we? (: Has it been already 1& a half year?
It seems so long since everything.
Everything will be etched. All the wrong/stupid/etc things.
& Especially all our small little tiffs& dumb arguments :D
No matter how close you're to anyone else,
I must be remembered okay! Hahahaha.
Because we've done so much for each other.
Because we had been so close.
Because we've been there for each other...
Everything will go well for you I believe! (Insert hearts!)


Next up, on 30th August. Yangjiaqi.
We've known each other for like what, since primary 2 till now.
7 years or more? (:
I can remember our immature talks& quarrels in primary 6!
The one I have confided in since as long as I can remember!
We really did drift apart for many a times.
And volleyball kind of brought us back together? :D
Then comes Redemption. And all the silly little talks.
The study times?! Hahahaha.
Nonsensical times, nervous audition...
& The times where you have to wait for me while I prepared!
I'm sure you'll never forget ;D
But I know, you'll love me still. (Inserts heart!)
Dont stress out, because you'll do well.
In studies& Redemption. Jyjy!


On the 9th September. Geraldine, Zihui.
Remember how we disliked each other during sec 1s!
Hahaha. What a joke. And now we're Aiai(s) :D
Been through distrust/quarrels/tiffs.
I know you're always letting in... (:
I thank you for that. I love you!
All the times we've been together.
Now you have your friend I assume.
And I have mine. But at least...
We still have school times to be with. Yeah.
I hope you'll be truthful, because I do trust you tons!
And you'll have my faith (:
I can remember how well we clicked in sec 2.
How we speak using same words...
Agree in many aspects. (Insert hearts!)
Hold your love for him prison.
Despite others thinking, I'll stand up for you.

When everything is falling apart. (Sad emoticon here)
Life is = unfair.
Everything always likes to go haywire,
all at the same time.
I feel a thousand daggers. I see all the haters.
I have to thank everyone that was so understanding,
and that was by me all these while.
All my hopes dashed. How to pick up the pieces (?)

Forsaken.

Who'll see the tears when it is at the darkest of night?
A place so fond of memories.
I'm giving up. No more picking of pieces.
The verdict is made. The jury is clear.
It spells gameover. Here I am, once again.

To whom does the line between wrong and right matters?
You make your stand. To be blinded by your so called facts.
Nothing will ever matters.
Not anymore.

Is it just me.
Or is it obviously?
Not much more to say.
Not much more to be done.
I feel like just acting up/crying out.
I thought I'm becoming so numb.
But in actual fact. I can feel it stinging.
I stray away, and this is still how I feel.
There's this feeling in my stomach.
I feel all my emotions there.
So mixed up.
Maybe I need to clarify all things to make it better.
But I dont know from where do I start.
At times, it seems like pointless.
At other, I feel so affected by all this shit.
Now what...?

In the midst of celebration.
I feel like an outcast.
I cant feel the happiness.
(Inserts one big sad emoticon)

Cannot resist not touching the computerrrrrrr :o
So I stole the keyboard from my mother :x
Thus, here's a random post.
Today's my Mum's birthday! Yay.
Even though she'll not be reading this,
but Happy Birthday to you Mummy! :D
Hahahahahaha. Just came back from west mall.
Watched The Mummy: Tomb Of The Dragon Emperor.
With Jiaqi, Jasperyong& Lywei.

Kind of disgusting at some point.
Yeah, overall it was, quite nice.
Very fiction though. Rate it 4/5 stars.

Shan't be blogging for quite long.
My mum decided that I was using too much of the computer.
And she confiscated my keyboard ):
I'm too lazy to use the computer outside.
Ciaoz (:

So little time.
So much things that are squeezed in a few days.
Went to ITE (College West) on Monday& Tuesday.
It makes me realise, you cannot study in ITE.
The people there gave me a very bad impression.
*Whines and grumbles.
Well, finally back to school today.
But was late to school (1030am).
Went, because couldn't miss training.
Have been having training,
consecutively for more than a week already!
Well, off to bed already. Goodnight (:

Today is a stupidly warm& stuffy tiring day!
I think I can just sleep non-stop 48 hours.
Stay awake, stay awake!
Today had our school's Sports Fiesta.
Sec 1 was Captain's ball. Sec 2 was basketball or soccer?
Whereas Sec 3 was Volleyball. Sec 4& 5 was floorball.
It is really hard/tiring/stressful.
Imma so tired.

Nothing to post. Feels one blank.
The best thing is that, my case is closed.
Training sucks. School isn't any better.
Friendships. Maybe losing = gaining more (?!)

I am finding my way back to myself.
I am finding my way back into love.
I am on my way. I am.

I need to study! *Uncrosses fingers
For real I have to!
I'm lagging behind in so many subjects.
I'm getting so tired of school because of this.
That I cant get anything into my brainsssss.
This is so traumatising (?!)
Today went to training, even though skipped school.
Self-training (:
Hohoh, then ate at mac (fattening!) with Weifeng& Vanessa.
Was bitching all the time there. *Grins
Imma so so so sick of my life. My no-life kind of life.

I miss the past, I'm so sick of reminiscing.
This world is such a sick place.
The society is so disgusting,
Life is so (censored) up.
You can judge a book by its cover.
You can think what you think.
But then again... you'll never know the true me.

Another post, but well, same day.
Shan't mingle public affairs with personal matters.
Laugh-out-loud!

Firstly: I miss coach. ):
Secondly: I feel so out of place.
Thirdly: I feel like I'm like volleyballing everyday,
to busy myself with.

I need a time machine. I want to go back in time.
Everything seems so pointless.
Everything just doesn't works out.
My heart feels like a bottomless pit.
(Now my stomach is feeling like one too)
I need my life back. To be on the right track.

Warning: Explict content/ language

My mood now is like,
hundreds of dynamite exploding in me.
Fuck it man! Things are just so wrong.
I must have gotten out from the wrong side of bed. *Rolls eye
But actually, there's only one side I can get out from.

Set off to Punggol @ around 6 plus today, evening.
Weifeng& I took the train to Angmokio.
Then took a taxi to Punggol secondary. (51 Edgefield plains)
Which is a fucking expensive $23.45! And a 50 minutes.
From Angmokio to Punggol. It's like...?! Fuck!
The issue now, isn't about the money but the time.
And the cabby is like, has a fucking attitude problem!

Urghhhh! He reprimanded us for not knowing the road?!
And he was very very rude to passerby(s).
He was like "Hello hello" *in a very harsh tone*
"You know how to get to Punggol Secondary?!" (In mandarin)
And everyone ignored him?!
Then he claims that we weren't precise with the address.
The address is 51 EDGEFIELD PLAINS lah you STUPID CABBY.
I said that "If we knew the raod, we weren't be in your cab!"
And he said it's not his fault he didn't know the road!
Nobody blames him for that, but he just keep mumbling,
that we are fault for not knowing the address!
Screw himself! >.< He's old.
We wanted to respect him. But there's no respect he deserves!
Plus, while Weifeng was off the taxi to ask a passerby direction,
at a bus stop, he just drove off! Like what the hell?!
And there was Weifeng running after the stupid cab.

In the end my dad gave him the directions.
Then he was like
"If you had told me this earlier, I'd have known!" (In mandarin)
Like I'd want to waste my own time in your stinky cab?!
Then in the end, he still doesn't know where it is!
Me and Weifeng still has to get off at some HDB flats.
In the middle of nowhere! And we figured the place out ourself,
with the help of another passerby.
Plus he refuses to give me a receipt at the end of the trip.
He was afraid of me making a complain I guess.
Then he said that he only wants to charge us $13,
if not, he'd refuse to print us a receipt.
Is that threatening or what?!
He wasted our time alot, and Weifeng was super pissed off.
Weifeng actually screamed at him!
"Our time is precious!" Something like that.
He canceled off the original price, and wrote $13 instead.
In the end, I still gave him $25 in total.
And said "Keep the change!"
He stalked us, all the way. Saying he'd drive us there.
No way I'm getting into HIS stinky cab.
You're just afraid I'd make a complain right?!
You stupid cabby. Yes! I am so gonna make a complain.
I am I am! Fuck it.
p/s: It's a (insert company here) cab (SH 786* K)

And while on the way home,
(Daddy& Mummy came to fetch me and Weifeng)
I got to know something, disgusting/irritating/fucked up.
Eeeeew! You ugly fucktard. You aint no handsome guy.
And you're still not contented?!

p/s: This post took me a 1hours and 20minutes to type!

Oh yeah, realise that I havent been to shopping for ages.
I need a shopping trip! Urgh.
And any kind souls to sponser me for it? :x
Im feeling super excited after looking at some random blogshops.
I swear that I am so very going to spend my wallets out.

I'm so tired. And I'm super sleeping *Yawns!
So goodnight, all out there.

I want time to turn back, go back in time.
I believe to never, never,
give up the things that hold my smile.
But, it doesnt matter to nobody.
So, why do I need to fake a smile at all...
For nobody to see?
See no, say no, hear no. Evil.

你总是要我乖,慢慢计划将来,
说的未来到底多久才来

Loved, and Lost.
I loved you, but I lost my placing in your heart.

My mind is gone, i'm spinning round.
And deep inside, my tears i'll drown.
I'm losing grip, what's happening.
I stray from love, this is how I feel.

This time was different.
Felt like, I was just a victim.
And it cut me like a knife.
When you walked out of my life.
Now I'm, in this condition
& I've got all the symptoms,
of a girl with a broken heart.
But no matter what you'll never see me cry.

Did it happen when we first kissed.
Cause it's hurting me to let it go.
Maybe cause we spent so much time.
& I know that it's no more.
I shoulda never let you hold me baby.
Maybe why I'm sad to see us apart.
I didn't give to you on purpose.
Gotta figure out how you stole my heart.

Some people dons a mask, some have two faces.
Some people are straight in your face,
whereas some. Just leaves you.
How I wished, time could be turned back...
But it isn't going to.
I've been striving to be nice, to be perfect, to be me.
You can say I'm acting, you can talk behind my back.
But you bloody do not know anything,
so shut your trap.
You assume, you think, you saw.
You think you are so right, when you are not!
Darn, screw it! ):

我的心真的好痛好痛...
Hate guys that think
they're the dominant gender (?) kind of thing.
Screw yourself if you're one of them.
*tsk: Nobody is always in the right!

Watched The Dark Knight during midnight. The show is fantastic. (:
Nice visuals, though storyline kind of, common.
4.5/5 stars! (: